Saturday, December 03, 2011
In Which We Find a Heavy Heart..
We worked so hard to create traditions with the kids when they were little, that they could have to take with them when they grew up and got older. Something that they could have to remember, or share with their own children one day. I can't even put into words how brokenhearted I feel about all of this. Not that it's my fault exactly, because there wasn't anything I could have done to prevent any of it, but it is because of me, and so I have that good old Catholic guilt over it. Silly, yes. But I can't help it. I can't help feeling awful about the whole thing and now that December is here and it's all staring me in the face it's like a lead weight crushing my heart.