Glimpse

I read a bunch of different kinds of blogs every day. Some are knitting related, some are home related, some are craft related, or running related, or food related or what have you. Just a random sampling of stuff that I like to read when I have a few minutes at the end of the day and I'm too darn tired to do anything else. One of the blogs I read, is The Yarnista, which is the blog for Three Irish Girls yarn. Today, Sharon posted a heart wrenching post that is so near and dear to my heart, I had to re-post it here on my own blog.

Love Finds You

Long time readers of my blog will know that I am not a huge fan of Valentine's Day. I've always operated under the theory that it's a Halmark holiday, created to boot sales of cards and gifts and candy in the middle of a winter slump. The holidays are over, winter is long, and what can we do to get people spending? With this attitude, I've taken to not celebrating the day at all. After all, I believe in showing my love on my terms, not on a day that the calendar says I should.

Sometimes The Day Can Be So Long...

So, as I've mentioned, my word for this year is acceptance. Since the year started, I have had some major growth in my life surrounding this word. 2011 is a year of change for me it seems, and so far it appears to be going well.

Something that I've been  struggling with lately, however, is accepting that just because you do something(s) nice for other people, doesn't mean that they have to reciprocate with nice things in return. In my heart I know this. I don't start out doing nice things for others with the goal being to have something done nice in return. That is selfish and crazy. I do nice things out of love. I do them because I enjoy the feeling I get by being nice to others. I do them because it's just who I am. I am a giver.

Be Beth

I AM...loved more than I know.
I WANT...to hold onto the peace and calmness I feel in my life right now forever.
I SHOULD...work on using my "free" time more productivly.
I WISH...that I could take away all the hurt that is in the hearts of all those I care about.
I HATE...feeling so cranky that I don't even like myself very much.
I FEAR...that I might lose my family in a tragic manner and be left alone.
I SEARCH...for who I really am, deep down at the core of my being.
I WONDER...how my life might have turned out differently, yet relish in the fact that it didn't.
I REGRET...nothing. Every moment has brought to me right now.
I HEAR...the words that aren't spoken, the questions that aren't asked, and the song in my heart.I LOVE...with all that I am, in the best way that I know how.
I AM NOT...perfect, nor am I done. I AM a work in progress.
I SING...loudly, and often, without caring who hears or what they think.
I CRY...when I am hurt, or when the feelings inside swell up so much that I think I might break.
I NEED... to be quiet more. To slow down. To remember to tell the people I care about how I feel.
I HAVE...everything I need to be happy.