and no matter what the dark and twisty announcer man says ("Stay tuned next week for the devastating conclusion").. Sondra will not kill off Meredith Grey. I don't care what she says either.
It has been a terrible year. It's been a terrible 5.5 months to be exact. One thing after another is kicking my arse, and as hard as I try to convince myself that it's going to get better... it's just not happening. But I have to keep on hoping. I have to believe that somehow it's going to turn around. Every time I think that it can't get any worse.. the universe has a great hearty laugh at me. I am trying not to get nervous every time things seem to calm down a little... but I can't help it. I too have a dark and twisty side. The universe has had it out for me since the beginning.. but I'm much stronger than I used to be. And I believe that in the end I will come out OK.
In the meantime, I have this fabulous new hat. I knit it out of a lovely shade of Lion Heart Wool Ease Thick N Quick. It's not the best yarn. It's not the softest, nor is it the warmest. But it is my favorite color and I love it. I used this pattern.. size 10 and 11 circs and size 11 dpns. I cast on 8 less stitches than Laurie did.. and I have a horrible high forehead so my photo looks a lot different than hers.. but I love my hat. I don't knit for myself very often, and I'm happy to have it. It kept my noggin warm while shoveling before school this morning and I love it. I have stopped stressing about my old projects. I have enough stress without having to stress about my "de-stressing" hobbies. I'll work on what I want, and when it gets done, so be it. I believe too.