Thursday, February 15, 2007

I Believe It's Been a Terrible Year...

and no matter what the dark and twisty announcer man says ("Stay tuned next week for the devastating conclusion").. Sondra will not kill off Meredith Grey. I don't care what she says either.

It has been a terrible year. It's been a terrible 5.5 months to be exact. One thing after another is kicking my arse, and as hard as I try to convince myself that it's going to get better... it's just not happening. But I have to keep on hoping. I have to believe that somehow it's going to turn around. Every time I think that it can't get any worse.. the universe has a great hearty laugh at me. I am trying not to get nervous every time things seem to calm down a little... but I can't help it. I too have a dark and twisty side. The universe has had it out for me since the beginning.. but I'm much stronger than I used to be. And I believe that in the end I will come out OK.



In the meantime, I have this fabulous new hat. I knit it out of a lovely shade of Lion Heart Wool Ease Thick N Quick. It's not the best yarn. It's not the softest, nor is it the warmest. But it is my favorite color and I love it. I used this pattern.. size 10 and 11 circs and size 11 dpns. I cast on 8 less stitches than Laurie did.. and I have a horrible high forehead so my photo looks a lot different than hers.. but I love my hat. I don't knit for myself very often, and I'm happy to have it. It kept my noggin warm while shoveling before school this morning and I love it. I have stopped stressing about my old projects. I have enough stress without having to stress about my "de-stressing" hobbies. I'll work on what I want, and when it gets done, so be it. I believe too.

7 comments:

Julia Ann White said...

Well damn. I am so glad to hear that you are knowing that this "terrible year pocket" will pass...god it sucks...I can totally understand. I love your self talk and I love how you know you kick ARSE. Just keep kicking arse and when you can breath again (for real) - knit something kooky to express it ok??!!

Julia

Sgt said...

Having recently come out of life's 2 year arse whipping, I can lend the same advice I used then... it's going to get better.

Hey.. there is nothing wrong with a "Dark and Twisted Side" either. Its there to be honed and perfected into a delicious tool of recourse.

Personally, I just let mine take over both sides, to save the trouble when decision making.

Remember... smile... it makes people wonder what your up to...

Kim - ScrapToMyLu said...

you are right! You HAVE had a hard year. But, don't waste the calming times worrying.....savor, enjoy, dance!
Here's to Beer Thirty!

tspwlv said...

I know you're getting your butt kicked, but at least you're going to look awesome and be warm while it's happening. Your hat is adorable and looks so cute on you! Ditto what Kim said...

Meghan said...

Beth, I am so sorry you are having such crappy months. I can relate. If I was in NH I we would scrap all the time & go out for hot fudge sundaes!!!!

Awesome Abby said...

I agree...they will not kill off Meredith. And I agree....that hat is absolutely scrumptious!

Bec said...

There must be something else that would be devastating...something besides Meredith dying.
Great hat!
Becca