When You Try Your Best...

I went browsing through my archives, looking for a tidbit of information I'm sure is there (but I can't quite find it yet).. and I found this post from early November last year.

Ya'll... I feel like I went through a time warp. I could post the SAME exact thing for today. I wrote this "Work is kicking my arse this year. It's gotten so chaotic and overwhelming, that I can't look past the current day. I can't think about the meeting next week, or a book report my son has coming up, or the project that my daughter is about to embark upon.. because right now I am just trying to get through each day. I am trying, and trying, and no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get up for air. Doing the work of 3 people is a lot on a good day. Doing it day after day after... sucks the very life right out of you."


Not one part of that I would change, except for the book report part. We have no reports. I do have a meeting coming up that I need to type minutes for (and last months while I'm at it). My daughter is about to embark upon another project for school (State Expo. She is learning about Vermont, our neighbor. If you live there and would like to send us photos/things made in VT/info... please email me). Work, yah. Pretty much the same.

I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel this year. I can't look forward to Thanksgiving, or Christmas vacation, because it is taking all I have in me to just get through each day. Then I come home, and have extracurricular stuff, and chores and it's just too much. I feel defeated and it's only late October. We've only been in school for 36 days and I can't even wrap my mind around it. June seems so very far away.

"When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you "