I never used to mind Monday's. I would listen to people piss and whine about how they hated Monday and how awful it was and blah blah blah... and I never got it. Monday. The first day of the work week (for most.) A day to start fresh, a clean slate. No different really than Tuesday or Wednesday. Or so I thought.
For some reason, lately I have come to loathe Monday's. Today, I actually felt vile and pissy. What for? Because it was a new week? A day to come back after a busy weekend? I talked to my pal about this, and she said she feels the same way about Monday's. She tries hard not to act all snarky on Monday's but it's not working for her. Me either, it would seem.
I am pretty sure I know what my problem is. Mostly it's stress. Job stress. Things at work right now are sucky. I think I've made mention of that. A lot of stuff is going on, and a lot of things are up in the air. And on top of all that, we are short a bunch of people and so in response to that, a whole lot of crap has been dumped on my shoulders. I asked a co-worker why it was that *I* always get stuck with everyone else's jobs when they decide that they can't do them anymore for whatever reason, or get pulled elsewhere. Know what she said?? "Because, unlike the rest of us, you're too damn nice and you do it without complaining."
So, because I have a work ethic, and a pretty cheery disposition, and an uncanny abbility to not be able to say NO to people.. I get taken advantage of as the boy would say. And right now, I'm feeling the effects of that. My friend (who is leaving us next year for another school and who I'll miss horribly) picked me up on the way home today so she could make sure I was ok. Apparently I had a real pissy look on my face this afternoon and she was worried.
I never even saw her in the hall this afternoon.. but I had just found out I'm spending 8 hours over 4 days doing MAP testing, (see previous post) covering on Thursday for a meeting (no one even asked me if this was ok and if I was available.. it was just assumed that I would be OK with it. I'm not) and informed that I have to assume yet another person's role in our school because she has to take over for a crappy first grade sub we had (our 1st grade teacher left on maternity leave). I was feeling a little pissy. A little walked all over. On top of that, someone else I work with made a really snarky comment to me the end of last week that really hurt my feelings, and yet she expects me to drop everything and cover for her meeting. It would seem that I'm still harboring some ill feelings about that.
It's been a long and trying school year. A lot of stuff has happened this year, and I've been jerked around on more than one occasion. On top of that, next years assignments are still up in the year, and it's always stressful when you're waiting to find out how they are going to screw with you in the fall. (we can't ever just leave things be.. that old practice, "if it ain't broken, don't fix it".. yah we don't practice that at our school.)
We have 21 more days. Summer can't get here soon enough.